Tinki Talks

May I Friendster You?

Friendster's great. I know it is. I believe so, regardless of what them MultipLIARS say. But sometimes… Some weird people do turn up here. Different people join Friendster for different reasons. I joined to get connected to friends I already know, those whom I'm having difficulty keeping in touch with or updated with. Others perhaps joined the network to meet new people. Well, when us – two very different minds – meet, it really bugs the hell out of me.

What's up with random-I-haven't-even-seen-you-before-in-my-life people who ask to befriend strangers? I don't get it. Don't these people have any REAL friends? Sheesh. Come on, we already have enough Hi-Bye friends as it is. Heck, we sometimes even forget some of their names! Do we really need anymore I-Dunno-You-You-Dunno-Me friends on our friend list? No!

Hmmm.

Do they even qualify to be called "friend" in the first place?

Bleh.

Uh, like "NO".

It irritates the hell outta me. Really. It does. And the best part is this: they usually have F-A-N-T-A-S-T-I-C English. The kind that'd kill my English lecturers on the spot – no physical contact needed. Hah. How, you say? With superb lines like these: -

"MAY I FRIENDSTER YOU?"

*blinks*

Say what?

Sigh.

Beh tahan, man.

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And on a different note: -

HAPPY HALLOWEEN, y'all!

*blinks*

Whatever.

Sigh.

Rock on.

p/s: Go easy on the candy.

Cancer On A Stick

Yes. Yes. Look at 'em.
All neatly arranged in a row,
looking all smug and jolly.

Hmmm.

Tell me now, how exactly does spending Cancer Cash make you feel good? I just don't get it… Paying for slow suicide is fun to you? Those Cancer Sticks are precisely that – cancer on a stick! In a world of 7-Eleven's and drive-thru Value Meals, I doubt we even need take-away cancer, do we?

And come on, tell me now… How does having a chimney stuffed into your mouth help in looking cool? Ridiculous – yes; cool – no… I really like this:

– Light Up. Be Cool. Drop Dead.

Heh heh… Time to quit, or be beat… Mwahahaha… Yes, yes… As you can see, I'm throughly enjoying this…

If you're a smoker, why not try this: -

Expensive? Yes.

Painful? Yes.

Torture? Yes.

Good.

Suck it all in and enjoy every minute while you're at it. Have a good day, y'all!

The Magic Of Love

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The Magic of Love
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Love is like magic
And it always will be,
For love still remains
Life's sweet mystery!

Love works in ways
That are wondrous and strange
And there's nothing in life
That love cannot change!

Love can transform
The most commonplace
Into beauty and splendor
And sweetness and grace!

Love is unselfish,
Understanding and kind,
For it sees with its heart
And not with its mind!

Love is the answer
That everyone seeks
Love is the language
That every heart speaks

Love can't be bought,
It is priceless and free,
Love like pure magic
Is a sweet mystery!

– © Helen Steiner Rice

Stumbed upon this poem by Helen Steiner Rice while I was browsing through love quotes and just felt like I HAD to post it. In just 6 simple sentences, the woman managed to sum up the wonder and magic of love.

*blinks*

Wow.

Bravo, bravo.

No other emotion brings people to kill with as much passion. Or risk everything with as much fervor. Or give their all with as much delight. Love makes us do silly things. It's these silly things lovers in love do that they consider entirely worthwhile. Of course, if we look at things from outside the circle, we'll never understand the actions of two people in love. We don't have to. It's about them; not us. Things of such are oftentimes beyond our understanding.

I believe that when truly in love, one will give their best – their all. Yes, we often give our all for love, but the interesting thing is that love can't even be bought in the first place. Instead, when offered in return, as Helen Steiner Rice said, "It is priceless and free." Isn't that marvelous?

Unfortunately, the world has adulterated the notion of love, making it but a superficial penny-chase phenomenon that rules the minds of ladies and overrides their intentions of pure and heartfelt love for good men. My guy friends feel the pressure and need to spend a mini fortune in order to show their ladies love and affection. The sad thing is that many girls out there tend to reinforce what these guys think.

"It's all about the money,
It's all about the dum dum da da da dum."

Backside.

I think the poet got it right. Love IS as close as we can get to magic right here on earth that's not "miracle-ly induced". Love, to me, is a blessed miracle – a gift from God that transcends the human emotion, the physical attraction, mindful logic and the voice of reason. Instead, it's a wonder of sensations and feelings that border on stumbling on the existence of a supernatural phenomenon. A mystery in itself. BUT… Nevertheless, it's a wonderful mystery that everybody (almost everybody, at least) wants to experience but will always fail to understand completely. Hah. That's love, ain't it?

Sigh.

Love – highly complicated but most beautiful in simplicity.

Rhyming Fun

Hey ya, guys! It's rhyming time!

I just left a hearty MSN conversation that prompted me to write this post. Haha. Goodness knows why but a number of my friends are in a rhyming mood. Thing is, this rhyming mode they've adopted seems to be a tad contagious. Haha. But I don't mind it, really. In fact, I kinda like it! It's fun!

Dear, friends, today I tell you this,
It's your time to talk, to share, and to please.
I know that some of you already rhyme with ease,
So go with the flow and don't be a tease.

Just speak in rhyme in all your comments,
Who knows, this could even be good training for you, fellow gents.
Be sure that we can understand exactly what you've sent,
Then hold your horses and keep up your pants.

Worried that you won't be making any sense?
Don't worry, we won't force you under the scope and lense.
Having problems with your past, present and future tense?
Who cares, really, since we're all such good friends.

Now, why am I posting when it's already so late?
Aih, no wonder I'm starting to have a headache.
I really should be getting my butt into bed,
Eyebags will surely come if I keep up this charade.

So goodnight, my friends and don't break the chain,
Or to me, you will definately have to explain.
Goodbye, farewell, I bid for now,
With that I leave you with a short, small bow.

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Topic of the Day
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– Share with us the many ways God has blessed you.

Not that difficult, right?

Gyeo-ool Yeon-ga

I bet that based on the title of this post, you guys are wondering:
What the heck has Tinki got to say this time?

Well, this is what that is…

Winter Sonata (겨울연가 – pronounced as "Gyeo-ool Yeon-ga" in Korean),
otherwise also known as Winter Ballad or Winter Love Story.

TADA! As promised to you-know-who. Consider it a Christmas gift that's decided to come early. And no worries, okay. Always a pleasure. Remember that it's not everyday that Tinki's this nice. Appreciate it while it lasts, okay? Savour every moment; absorb every word. =p

I simply love this Korean series. It's just so, so very nice! They typical see-see-cry-cry love story. I can't decide whether I like this series better or the other see-see-cry-cry Korean series entitled Autumn In My Heart (가을동화 – pronounced as "Ga-eul-dong-hwa" in Korean). They're the same, yet they're different. Hmmm. I guess Winter Sonata has a happier ending so it tends to score better on Tinki's-Korean-series-rating scale. What can I say? I'm a sucker for happy-ever-after endings. =p

And sure, the story's a little long-drawn but, come on, the scenery's nice, right? ALL the scenery. And that includes the moving, very good-looking, human ones like…

Lead Actor: Bae Yong-joon (배용준)

Lead Actress: Choi Ji-woo (최지우)

Ahem.

*coughs*

I appreciate all things beautiful.

*cough cough*

*grin*

And guess what? I found something out while I was doing my "research". What I didn't know was that Winter Sonata is the second part of the KBS TV drama series Endless Love! Hmmm. I should really go check that one out. I already know Batu Feringgi sells Winter Sonata for pennies. Heh. The beauty of a highly competitive piracy industry.

Thing is, do they sell Endless Love, too?

*scratches head while wondering if Penang has Endless Love for RM4 per DVD*

p/s: Tinki feels that she should say,
"Dear readers, please support
our movie industry. Do not buy
pirated goods. It's stealing." =p

One last word of advice: Do as Tinki says. Never do as Tinki does. =p

Wow

Wow.

There's no other way to put it.

Wow.

My God is an awesome God.

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Psalm 4
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For the director of music. With stringed instruments. A psalm of David.

1 Answer me when I call to you,
O my righteous God.
Give me relief from my distress;
be merciful to me and hear my prayer.

2 How long, O men, will you turn my glory into shame [a] ?
How long will you love delusions and seek false gods [b] ?
Selah

3 Know that the LORD has set apart the godly for himself;
the LORD will hear when I call to him.

4 In your anger do not sin;
when you are on your beds,
search your hearts and be silent.
Selah

5 Offer right sacrifices
and trust in the LORD.

6 Many are asking, "Who can show us any good?"
Let the light of your face shine upon us, O LORD.

7 You have filled my heart with greater joy
than when their grain and new wine abound.

8 I will lie down and sleep in peace,
for you alone, O LORD,
make me dwell in safety.

– New International Version (NIV)
Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by International Bible Society

How can it be possible that people say my God isn't real? It isn't possible.

No Defence II

Artist: Lucie Silvas
Song Title: No Defence

Armed with an arrow you're pointing it straight at my heart
Watching me break as I try find my way out the dark
They say each moment comes to an end so my pain is its consequence
It's a battle and I have no defence

Sure as you said that you loved me you turned me away
Suddenly everything changed right in front of my face
They say sometimes love's just unfair but why's it at my expense
I've no answers and I have no defence

I guess I'll never understand
How love can come and go, go no
Looking through the broken glass now I know, know
Even though my bitter doubt lets my loneliness show
I'll get over loving you in the end

I wish that I had the courage to leave you behind
'Cause you are the one that I'll love for the rest of my life
They say someday I'll trust again but it makes no difference
'Cause it's a battle and I have no defence

No, no, no
It's a battle and I have no
No defence

My Lucie Silvas album has finally been returned to me. It took all of half a year. Half a freaking year! Goodness! Too much. Dang. And just so you guys know, I’ve posted this song before. Haha. Back on April 03, 2006 at 04:40 AM.

Hmmm.

Looks like things haven’t changed much after half a year after all. I’m still stuck on the same song as I was back when I bought the album. I tend to stick to what I'm comfortable with. Bad habit, I know.

Sigh.

I really should bring some change into my life. Extinguish those bad habits. Change is good, Pam. Change is very good. Reach out to it. Embrace it. Who knows? You might just grow to love it.

*frown*

Whatever.

Love is a battle. It’s true. I know it’s true. Each encounter and confrontation with another is but a small part of a raging battle that’s a part of a greater, more furious war – the battle being the fight to be loved as much as we deserve to be loved, and the war being the fight for a truly happy and fulfilling existence. But happy existences don’t come easy these days because we seem to fight interminable and never-ending battles – battles that rage on and on without an attached due date.

But… We’re human, aren’t we? That in mind, questions race through my head. How long can one fight this fight? How long will the journey take? Will we even reach our destination? How much can our hearts take? Will victory come eventually? Or will the finale come drenched in pain and misery?

I don’t know.

But I know Who does.

“I guess I'll never understand
How love can come and go”

There are many things I’ll never understand. Love is but one of it. There are many other things that taunt my mind and fill my thoughts. Even as these things come crashing down on me, I shall not be afraid. Why? Because Daddy’s watching out for me. So, let the battle rage on for all I care. Whatever may be, He’s my defence. He’s got my back. And with that, I have His assurance that things will be alright.

You Tell Me

Change is good. It's never welcomed, but nevertheless, it's good. And honestly, I think that you guys wouldn't really mind this change. No long posts for you today. No lengthy monologues. No tiresome dramas. No depressive scenarios. And definitely, no mind-boggling methaphores.

You know how it's always MY thoughts and MY ramblings and MY ideas on Tinki Talks? Well, tada! Suprise suprise! Today's special. It's YOUR day to say all you want right here on Tinki Talks. Heh heh. So, my question of the day is this:

"Is it possible to know someone TOO well?"

You tell me.

Decide, Woman, for I'm Afraid of the Ice

Have you ever found that sometimes, life throws you a couple of punches you never expect or weren’t prepared for? Well, over the past couple of weeks, I’ve had the opportunity to duck some of ‘em. I can’t say that they’re bad experiences. No, no. They’re just…well, experiences. I wouldn’t categorize them as good or bad ones. Okay, I lied. I can’t categorize them. Believe me, I tried. Hah. I’ve got “un-categorize-able” (if ever there were such a word) experiences under my belt. Zippedy-doo-dah for me.

*long sigh*

Well, the thing is, I always thought that things would turn out a certain way for me. I guess I sorta planned on them turning out the way I wanted them to. I mean, not just by my own strength or by my own will alone. Nope, that’s stupid. But heck, I even prayed about it. Well, wonder of wonders, after everything, the ice cracked last week.

Are you guys lost?

I’m sorry. Here, let me explain myself. I was a skater. I mean, I owned a pair of skates before and I did take on a couple of lessons. It's almost like dancing except that you move much faster on ice than you do on solid ground. It was fun. I liked it. I initially thought I was doing pretty well but after a bad fall a few lessons later, I quit. I shoved the skates into the back of the storeroom and told myself that I never wanted to brave the ice again.

Well, it took me a long time to discover that I still wanted to skate. It came with a rude awakening just when I thought that life could go on without me being on the ice. I thought I didn’t need the wind in my hair or the shoop-shoop sound of my blades on ice. Never thought I’d say this but if anything, I wanted my old skates back. “Nah, I’ll never find them. They’re way too far back in the closet and way too deep in the dust for me to ever find them,” I told myself. “And, come on,” I went on, “They’re bound to be too tight by now. After all, I’ve grown up. They won’t fit my feet anymore.” I left it at that.

Well, the skates turned up one day while Mummy was spring-cleaning. I swooped in for a good look at them. Hmmm. Not too shabby. Hell, I had taste back in the day. Hah. But nah, I don’t think they’ll fit. Nevertheless, I tried ‘em on just for size. *grunt* A tight squeeze but I guess the weather messed with the leather and it got loose due to the humidity or something. I don’t know. Whatever it is, it wasn’t as uncomfortable as I thought it would be.

Hmmm.

Here comes the point where I reached a junction. “To skate, or not to skate” – that was the question. I couldn’t decide. I didn’t know what choice to make. My head told me, “Eh! Stupid ah you? Fall before summore dunno how to scared meh? Plus, you know your bad back won't be able to take another fall.” But my heart said, “Hey, you know you can learn again. Second time round is never as difficult as the first.”

Sigh.

Well, here was where I started to pray. I had to know from Someone greater than I. I had to have the insight of a mind that’s not of this world that also knew my situation better than I did. I didn't want to sign up for lessons, pay the registration fee, go for a couple of lessons then end up quitting a second time round. That'd be a total waste of time and money.

Ding!

The microwave popped and I think I got my answer.

Phew.

Okay, fine. I’d skate again. I’d have to sign up for classes and get a proper suit. But first things first. I decided to wear my skates for a few minutes each day to comfortable-ize (my English stinks) them. After all, it’s been awhile. So, day in and day out, that was what I did. Just for a few minutes. Some days, those minutes stretched while for some other days, I barely had the time to step into them before stepping out again. The preparation for my classes was working out very well for me. Things were comfortable and I never had to go out of my way to keep to my skate-loosening ritual.

But things aren’t sweet all the time, right?

I suddenly got to know that the teacher I liked and was counting on learning from would be away on maternity leave. Dang. What now? Should I just forgo the classes and give up my dream? Perhaps I should. What if some other psycho teacher kills me on the ice before I even complete all my lessons? I didn’t know what to do. Things weren’t working out like I thought they would. No smooth sailing for me this time. I had to choose – to wait till my teacher-of-choice returns or to go ahead and tread into the unknown with another teacher.

Think, Tinki, think!

Dang. What bad timing. And just when I was on the verge of starting my lessons, too. Sigh. Well, things happen, huh? Roll with it. But after that, what next?

Well, brilliant me decided to take the chicken-shit’s way out. That’s it la. I decided to call off the lessons once and for all. If Mrs Teacher-of-Choice returned eventually, I’ll decide then, to decide again.

But wait. As soon as I made my decision, things went haywire. My friends started introducing me to roller-blading and roller-skating. Close seconds, yes, but nope, not exactly my cup of tea. Next, I started getting weird calls and emails from skate schools around the area. They began promoting their teachers to me, some of whom I already knew, while some others I didn’t. Sure, some seemed like pretty good teachers – the kind that I’d introduce my friends to. But none that struck my fancy. One thing that this did was that it sure opened my eyes to a whole world of the availability of skating teachers. There are so many of them! I guess if I wanted to, there would be one who’d be able to take the place of Mrs Teacher-of-Choice.

But… Perhaps I just didn’t trust that they were capable of breaking my super-duper-uber-power fear of the ice. Or maybe it was as simple as the fact that I didn’t like the fella’s haircut or teeth. I don’t know what it was but I just didn’t end up going for lessons with any of them. Well, even so, the calls and emails didn’t cease. Sigh.

How now? I think skating teachers go through some special student recruitment technique course before they get to teach cause they sure weren’t letting up. Perhaps not until I started classes with A teacher – ANY teacher. Well, guess what the first thing that went through my mind was.

“Mrs Teacher-of-Choice, ditch your baby and come back la!”

*blinks*

Okay okay. I think I’ve strayed way too far from what I wanted to say. I can’t even remember how I started this post. Bleh. I love kids. I wouldn't dream of asking her to ditch that baby. No, no, I wouldn't ask (though I know my life would be a whole lot easier if she did that).

So anyways, all I’m saying is that sometimes, we’ve gotta make choices. These choices are thrown at us without us expecting them but nevertheless, we’re expected to hit right back and aim straight, too. It ain’t easy. It never is. But you know, in my case, my problem came when Mrs Teacher-of-Choice decided to go off for maternity leave. That was why I had to decide on my next course of action. And the thing is with this saturated industry is that if one teacher leaves, another one is always ready to step right up and take that teacher’s place. The market is such.

Sigh.

That doesn’t make it easy for us students, especially not for ice-fraidy cats who want to skate so badly but are unwilling to risk another fall. Choice is not always a good thing to have. Thing is, I’m at crossroads whether I like it or not. I wish that Mrs Teacher-of-Choice was too and that she’d decide to return to help me conquer the ice again. Thing is, I don’t think they even told her that I registered for those blasted lessons. Ish. She’s at the wrong place at the wrong time! For all I know, by the time she chooses to return, the ice would have melted and Winter has moved into Spring.

*grumble grumble, frown frown*

For now, here’s what I think – when you find yourself crossroads, or worst still, at the wrong place at the wrong time, it's time to move those legs, get off that butt and go places – the right places. Who knows, you’d probably make someone’s life a whole lot easier.

Bleh.

Stand By Me

Artist: Shayne Ward
Song Title: Stand By Me

Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When I am weary
You make me stronger
This love is beautiful
So unforgetable
I feel no winter cold
When we're together
When we're together

[CHORUS]
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I'll belong
When the story gets told

When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder
This love won't fade away
And through the hardest days
I'll never question us
You are the reason
My only reason

[CHORUS]
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I'll belong
When the story gets told

I am blessed
To find what I need
In a world losing hope
You're my only belief
You make things right
Everytime after time

[CHORUS]
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand, stand by me
Will I be apart of your life
When the story gets told
Ooo...

Stand by me
No, my darlin'
See, I want you by my side,
See, I need you here with me,
Stand by me
Stand by me
Stand by me

Was just introduced to this song today. Sure, the tune's a little old school and it really reminds me of Unchained Melody that was used for the movie “Ghost (1990)”. But there's just something about it. I don't know what. Perhaps it's the lyrics. Or maybe the simple tune. I don't know. I can't place what it is. But I like it. Haha.

Anyways, I just wanna thank the people who've stood by me through the years – through the good times and through the bad. You know who you are. Thanks for standing by me. You know that if ever there comes a time when you need me, I'll stand by you. Hugs.

珊瑚海 (Shan Hu Hai; English: Coral Sea)

Artist: 周杰倫 (English: Jay Chou)
Lyricist: 方文山 (English: Vincent Fong)
Song Title: 珊瑚海 (Shan Hu Hai; English: Coral Sea)

(周杰倫 – Jay Chou)

海平面遠方開始陰霾
hai ping mian yuan fang kai shi yin mai
(English: A distance away, the surface of the sea begins to turn grey)

悲傷要怎麼平靜純白
bei shang yao zen me ping jing chun bai
(English: Why is sadness this calm and pure?)

我的臉上
wo de lian shang
(English: My face)

始終挾帶
shi zhong jia dai
(English: Still shows)

一抹淺淺的無奈
yi mo qian qian de wu nai
(English: An expression of helplessness)

(梁心頤 – Lara)

你用唇語說你要離開
ni yong chun yu shuo ni yao li kai
(English: Your lips mouthed that you're leaving)

…情不在
…qing bu zai
(English: …Love is absent)

那難過無聲慢了下來
na nan guo wu sheng man le xia lai
(English: That sadness silently dies)

洶湧潮水
xiong yong chao shui
(English: The turbulent tide)

你聽明白
ni ting ming bai
(English: If you listen carefully)

不是浪而是淚海
bu shi lang er shi lei hai
(English: Is not the waves but a sea of tears)

(合 – Together)

轉身離開
zhuan shen li kai
(English: Turn around and leave)

…你有話說不出來
…ni you hua shuo bu chu lai
(English: …You have words you don't express)

分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
(English: Can’t say you want a break up)

海鳥跟魚相愛
hai niao gen yu xiang ai
(English: The love between seagulls and fishes)

只是一場意外
zhi shi yi chang yi wai
(English: It was only an accident)

我們的愛
wo men de ai
(English: Our love)

…給的愛
…gei de ai
(English: …The love invested)

差異一直存在
chai yi yi zhi cun zai
(English: Differences existed all along)

…回不來
…hui bu lai
(English: …Unable to return to the way it was before)

風中塵埃
feng zhong chen ai
(English: Like dust in the wind)

…等待
…deng dai
(English: …Waiting)

竟累積成傷害
jing lei ji cheng shang hai
(English: It has actually accumulated into hurt)

(合 – Together)

轉身離開
zhuan shen li kai
(English: Turn around and leave)

分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
(English: Can’t say you want a break up)

蔚藍的珊瑚海
wei lan de shan hu hai
(English: The azure-tinted Coral Sea)

錯過瞬間蒼白
cuo guo shun jian cang bai
(English: Lost its ashen complexion momentarily)

當初彼此
dang chu bi ci
(English: During that time, the both of us)

…你我都
…ni wo dou
(English: …You and I both)

不夠成熟坦白
bu gou cheng shu tan bai
(English: Were not mature and honest enough)

…不應該
…bu ying gai
(English: …Shouldn’t have)

熱情不再
re qing bu zai
(English: The passion is no longer there)

…你的
…ni de
(English: …Your)

笑容勉強不來
xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
(English: Smiles cannot be forced)

愛深埋珊瑚海
ai shen mai shan hu hai
(English: Love is deeply buried in the Coral Sea)

(周杰倫 – Jay Chou)

毀壞的沙雕如何重來
hui huai de sha diao ru he zhong lai
(English: How can destroyed sand castles be rebuilt?)

有裂痕的愛怎麼重蓋
you lie hen de ai zen me zhong gai
(English: How can broken love be restored?)

只是一切
zhi shi yi qie
(English: Just that everything)

結束太快
jie shu tai kuai
(English: Ended too quickly)

你說你無法釋懷
ni shuo ni wu fa shi huai
(English: You say you can’t let go)

(梁心頤 – Lara)

貝殼裡隱藏什麼期待
bei ke li yin cang shen me qi dai
(English: What hopes are hidden within the seashells?)

…等花兒開
…deng hua er kai
(English: …Waiting for the flowers to bloom)

我們也已經無心再猜
wo men ye yi jing wu xin zai cai
(English: We've already lost heart in guessing again)

面向海風
mian xiang hai feng
(English: Facing the sea breeze)

鹹鹹的愛
xian xian de ai
(English: Salty love)

嘗不出還有未來
chang bu chu hai you wei lai
(English: We can't taste if there still is a future)

(合 – Together)

轉身離開
zhuan shen li kai
(English: Turn around and leave)

…你有話說不出來
…ni you hua shuo bu chu lai
(English: …You have words you don't express)

分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
(English: Can’t say you want a break up)

海鳥跟魚相愛
hai niao gen yu xiang ai
(English: The love between seagulls and fishes)

只是一場意外
zhi shi yi chang yi wai
(English: It was only an accident)

我們的愛
wo men de ai
(English: Our love)

…給的愛
…gei de ai
(English: …The love invested)

差異一直存在
chai yi yi zhi cun zai
(English: Differences existed all along)

…回不來
…hui bu lai
(English: …Unable to return to the way it was before)

風中塵埃
feng zhong chen ai
(English: Like dust in the wind)

…等待
…deng dai
(English: …Waiting)

竟累積成傷害
jing lei ji cheng shang hai
(English: It has actually accumulated into hurt)

(合 – Together)

轉身離開
zhuan shen li kai
(English: Turn around and leave)

分手說不出來
fen shou shuo bu chu lai
(English: Can’t say break up)

蔚藍的珊瑚海
wei lan de shan hu hai
(English: The sky blue Coral Sea)

錯過瞬間蒼白
cuo guo shun jian cang bai
(English: Missing the momentary paleness)

當初彼此
dang chu bi ci
(English: At that time you and I)

…你我都
…ni wo dou
(English: …You and I both)

不夠成熟坦白
bu gou cheng shu tan bai
(English: Were not mature and honest enough)

…不應該
…bu ying gai
(English: …Shouldn’t)

熱情不再
re qing bu zai
(English: The passion is not there anymore)

…你的
…ni de
(English: …Your)

笑容勉強不來
xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
(English: Smile cannot be forced)

愛深埋珊瑚海
ai shen mai shan hu hai
(English: Love is deeply buried in the Coral Sea)

I've been meaning to publish this for ages but I never found the time to inject my usual dose of thoughts, opinions and comments. Heh. Well, I decided that today is the day. I believe that it is finally time. Don’t worry. I’ll start this off easy.

I really love this song. Haha. I do, I do. I think the lyricist, 方文山 (English: Vincent Fong) is awesome! He’s so fantastically talented. Somehow or another, the genius managed to phrase everything and capture the message of an impossible love affair with beautifully poetic lyrics. To add onto that, he gave the entire song a “coral sea” theme that depicted their so-called love through connotative means. Marvellous! Awesome! Amazing!

*blinks*

Okay. That’s it. I’m getting too carried away ala Elvis. The haze is getting to me. Yeah. That’s it. I blame it on the haze.

Anyways, thing is, I think this song breathes new insight and gives new light to the concept or notion of the attraction of opposites. This, of course, comes with a hint of continuation from my previous post entitled “Opposites Attract”.

You see, 周杰倫 (English: Jay Chou) sings of a love that is bound to fail and can head nowhere but towards inevitable heartbreak. Already, whatever the couple share between them is laced with tears and sorrow, intertwined with pain and heartache. Why? Simply because both parties come from very different worlds.

I’m a romantic on the inside. But… When it comes to love and relationships, in certain aspects, I believe that the head rules and what it says, goes in the end. At least it should. You have to admit, the heart makes us do silly things sometimes.

Much as people say that love conquers all things, and overcomes all obstacles, it’s only wise to open our eyes to see that people who live at odds and who see things from different poles are highly unlikely to end up together. Sometimes certain differences may seem superficial but these differences should not be taken lightly, nor should they just be taken at face value. If one would take the time to dive deeper into these differences, one would see how much destruction it could bring between the two parties. Whatever friendship built can be destroyed; whatever familiarity gained can be stripped away.

I’ve seen a number of friends of mine who’ve dated people very different from themselves. One’s quiet while the other’s the life of the party. One’s studious while the other’s way too playful for work or study of any kind. One’s very logical while the other’s very much an I-go-by-gut-feelings kinda person. Sounds like a good compliment to each other, no? Well, they’ve all broken up. Sure, they may have dated for a couple of years but even then, throughout their relationship, they fought, quarrelled and argued the months and years away.

I once asked myself, “But why was it that those couples seemed so in love in the beginning? How can that magic die so suddenly?” Well, after much thought, I think the answer could be this: The magic didn’t die. There wasn’t magic in the first place. It wasn’t chemistry that ignited the flames of “love” between them. Nope. It was simply curiosity and the excitement that comes with treading into the unknown with someone whose personality is a tad different from yours, making the person more difficult to read…initially. But really, how long does excitement of the unknown last, huh? Not long, I can tell you that. For once the unknown becomes known, all the adrenaline-pumping, blood-rushing, pupil-dilating excitement fades away, leaving you with a person who’s too different a piece in your puzzle that there’s no way of finding a spot to place them in.

I don’t believe in having to make a mistake to learn from it. I can learn from the mistakes of others, can't I? Love, if absent, cannot be forced. Opposites attract doesn’t work. Not to me. I’d never go for it. I believe that it takes a number of similarities to keep two people gelled together for a lifetime.

All The Way from January to December

You know how they've got these horoscope-starscope-jingly-nona-babble for every birth month of the year, right?

*this is your cue to nod ya heads*

But have you guys ever noticed that they're freakishly accurate? Scary. Anyways, a friend sent me the personality list for his birth month and I asked for mine but that was all I got from him – November and another month. Bleh. So, me being me, I just HAD to get the complete list of months from January right up to December.

Side tracking just a bit here. You see, you've gotta understand this bit about me. I think I'm a C. Yes yes, people deceive themselves all the time. I'm no different. I do it, too. =p

*blinks*

Okay, so getting back to the subject at hand, I just HAD to get the full list and, of course, me being typical-uber-considerate me, I've decided to post it here for all you fellas out there to take a look. Just ignore some weird stuff like "thinking generous" cos I have no idea what that is. Other than that, I've already corrected the "off" sounding stuff I found so your read should be a pretty smooth one.

*this is your cue to say "Thank you"*

JANUARY TALKER

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all.

FEBRUARY SMARTS

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH CUTIE

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot and has brains.

APRIL GORGEOUS

Drop dead gorgeous. Attractive personality. Very sexy. Affectionate and secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox. Loves to talk a lot. Loves to get their way. Unbelievable kisser. Easily angered. Very stubborn in the most ways possible. Loves to get noticed. Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has great fashion sense. Maybe a little too popular with others. Outgoing and crazy at times. Intelligent. Can sometimes be a heartbreaker. Can love as much as possible. Hates insults. Loves compliments. Just one of the clumsiest people you will ever meet. A very big flirt. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. The best in bed out of these months. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.

MAY FREAK

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.

JUNE SHYNESS

Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls love you. You are very hot. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

JULY FLIRT

You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have a very attractive partner. A wicked hottie. Likes somebody with an August birthdate. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself – heck, you’ve got the looks for it.

AUGUST ATTITUDE

Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind-hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. Very revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. Big imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of “that someone”. Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by “no pain, no gain”. Caring. Always suspicious. Playful. Mysterious. “Charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. Stubborn. Curious. Independent. Strong-willed. A fighter.

SEPTEMBER LOVER

Sexy as hell, loves sex and making love, tends to be so hot. Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys making love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. You are a great match with somebody in July.

OCTOBER BABE

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the centre. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Horny but does fulfill. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Know what to do to have fun. Unpredictable. Someone to have close to you. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest and sexiest of them all.

NOVEMBER HOTTIE

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because they’re one of a kind.

DECEMBER BEAUTY

This straight-up means you're the most good-looking. Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.

Hmmm. Okay. Fine. I have to say it. Most months sound the same and there are plenty of overlaps in personality. Bleh. Perhaps we're being conned. But, whatever it is, I still think that mine's pretty accurate. Hah!

*blinks*

Whoa. Déjà-vu.

*blinks again*

You know what? I feel like I've posted this before. Hmmm.

p/s: Happy 22nd Birthday!
(You know who you are.)
Love you. Mwah! =)

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Post Updated October 17, 2006 at 03:25 AM.

My arm was twisted to rewrite a sentence from the above-posted material.

"Anyways, a friend sent me the personality list for his birth month and I asked for mine but that was all I got from him – November and another month."

Here goes.

Anyways, ONE OF my best friends sent me the personality list for his birth month and I asked for mine but that was all I got from him – November and another month.

Will that do?

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Post Updated October 17, 2006 at 03:34 AM.

Looks like some people are never happy. Fine. I'll rewrite this one last time. You'd better make this worth it.

Anyways, my best-human-friend sent me the personality list for his birth month and I asked for mine but that was all I got from him – November and another month.

Done. Now, smile.

Earning Respect 101

I was looking through some blogs earlier this week and I found a particular post on earning respect exceptionally interesting. The thing is, earning respect can be simpler than you think. IF you're willing to stand for what is right and do what is, not only deemed respectable by society in general, but is also considered respectable in your own eyes. Check this out.

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Earning Respect 101
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1. Refuse a slut.

2. Appreciate her body but compliment her wit.

3. Praise in public; critise in private.

4. Stay sober when no one would blame you for drinking.

5. Become what you told people you always wanted to be.

6. When some idiot says "Ugh, you actually like that?" Say, "YES."

7. Do the dirty work required; don't take the short cut.

8. Risk being hated for doing the right thing.

See. It ain't that hard to be a person who rightfully deserves to be respected, no?

Respect is a funny thing, ain't it? It doesn't take much to earn the respect of the people around you. But at the same time, also takes very little to lose the respect of the people around you. Sadly, earning it is a whole lot more difficult than losing it. It could take you a lifetime to earn the respect of those around you but a single mistake on your part could cost you that lifetime's work.

Sigh.

If only it were the other way round.

Hah.

If only.

Christianity in the Eyes of C.S. Lewis (& Tinki)

Everyday I'm amazed at how my faith helps define my take on life…

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Quote of the day:
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"I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen:
not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else."

– C.S. Lewis

Shining Friends

Artist: 2R
Song Title: Shining Friends

Little faith brightens a rainy day
Life is difficult; you can't go away
Don't hide yourselves in the corner
You have my place to stay

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye
Opens up, you'll see the happy sunshine
Keep going on with your dream
Chasing tomorrow's sunrise
The spirit can never die

Sun will shine, my friend
Won't let you cry, my dear
Seeing you shed a tear
Make my world disappear
You'll never be alone in darkness

See my smile, my friend
We are with you, holding hands
You have got to believe, you are my destiny
We're meant to be your friends
That's what a friend should be

A friend (shireen | 5/10/2006)* sent me a testimonial with this song awhile back and I have to say, I like it. Haha. Yes, it has that Chinese twang to it. And yes, the lyrics are a bit off (probably cos it was translated from a Chinese song in the first place). But nevertheless, it's nice! The gist of the song is what matters. Sometimes, grammar has to come in second, eh?

*blinks*

Hah… Never thought I'd actually say that. Bleh.

But yeah. I like this song. And today, I dedicate it to my friends who've stood by me through thick and thin, through good times and bad times, through all the laughter and tears, through the many joys and the deepest of sorrows. You guys (you know who you are) are truly the best. I love you.

* Yes, I believe in referencing and citing in text. I've been taught well.

The Journey

Artist: 911
Song Title: The Journey

Time waits for no one, sure as the tide pulls the ocean
Sure as the path that's been chosen cannot be changed
In my life's destination, I searched for the explanation
For some kind of reason for my sorrow and pain
But in my isolation, I learned to listen
To be thankful for the love that I'd been given

[CHORUS]
This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn,
I've laughed and cried as the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams alive

In my desperation, I swore never again
Would I hear all the laughter of my friends and my family
A million tears that I'd cry then began to dry
Silence of the night time
I have come to realize a sweet inspiration filled my horizon
Gave me the heart to go on and never would give in

(Repeat Chorus)

I'm going to love each moment of every day and every night
I'll look back to the past with the sweetest smile
For now, I realize I've been given the key to life
I've been kissed by the angel by my side
Oh, yeah

(Repeat Chorus)

To bring my dreams alive
To bring my dreams alive

Time. Oh, Time.

Turns out that Time is of such essence. I've just come to realise that not everything withstands the test of Time.

Sometimes, it's Time that doesn't fit into our busy schedules – it doesn't fit into our plans. Much as we fight for Time on a day-to-day basis, it's time to realise that sometimes, Time doesn't fight for us and it definitely isn't worth us fighting for. So many times I've wondered, "Would things work out if we lived in a different era? Would they finally fall into place if we lived in a different time?" Well, I guess that's something I'll never know. But what I know for sure, is that this time, the answer is "no".

Somedays, Time befriends me. I find that there are days when we walk hand in hand with our selfish plans that just so happens to merge with one another in a way that both of us appreciate the outcome it brings. But on days like today, Time and I are at odds. Friends, we are, no longer.

"This is my journey, journey through life
With every twist and turn,
I've laughed and cried as the road unwinds
This is my journey, and I've learned to fight
To make me strong enough, to lift me up, to bring my dreams alive"

One thing for sure, is that, friend or no friend, Time has certainly helped me along the way. As Time passed me by, and brought along with it rushing winds, sand storms and stormy gales, I've learnt to fight. It's made me that much stronger. My strength, I owe to Time; my fighting spirit, I owe to Time.

Today, I say, "Time waits for no one, sure as the tide pulls the ocean
Sure as the path that's been chosen cannot be changed"…

The tide has come and gone and waves have erased what the sands of Time have built. Sandcastles in the sand have been wiped away and all that remains are memories of it. What's different between memories of a sandcastle built compared to the real thing? Well, the real thing is a work-in-progress that could bring forth with it many beautiful things under the hands of skilled sculptors. Memories, on the other hand, can be changed no longer.

I have memories. And just memories they will stay. But my memories don't haunt me. I won't let them. I own them; not them me. Memories are but bits of my past weaved into a quilt that I can choose to cloak myself with or keep under lock and key. You see, my memories work for me. When I want their warmth, I wrap myself in them and immerse myself into thoughts of times past. But when I don't, under no circumstance are they to reveal themselves and weigh me down.

"I have come to realize a sweet inspiration filled my horizon
Gave me the heart to go on and never would give in"

So now, I focus on the present. The horizon stretches out ahead of me and I already see the morning sun in the distance. Who knows what the future brings? Life's going to take on a bunch of turns in the near future but those twists and turns don't worry me. Why? For when I take care of my present, my present does it's part and takes care of my future. So what is it that I CAN do for now? Have the heart to go on and never give in.

"I'm going to love each moment of every day and every night
I'll look back to the past with the sweetest smile
For now, I realize I've been given the key to life
I've been kissed by the angel by my side"

I look forward to days to come and I know I'm gonna love each moment of every day and night. Why? Cos I know in those days to come, I'll love myself more than I ever did before. I'll look at my quilt for a day or two, I'll even let it warm me when the days get cold. But that's about all the honour it's about to get.

Tonight, I was given the key to life. =)

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Post Updated October 13, 2006 at 03:59 PM.

As per your request. Bleh.

p/s: This totally ruins the emotions that come with my post. I will remove this music video. If I forget, remind me.

Tinki's Rollercoaster Rules

Rollercoasters are fun…

…most of the time.

Haha. Okay, fine. I admit it. I like rides. I do, I do. Most of the time. But I've been thinking. Those "persons-under-4ft-are-not-permitted-on-this-ride" rules aren't enough. Come on. We all know it. Some of those things aren't as safe as they appear to be, okay! Plus, they seem to let any Abu-Ali-and-Ahmad on these days.

Well, I've taken the liberty to add a couple of "rules" to the list. You see, critical me believes that things aren't as simplistic as they seem. There are a few things to look out for before boarding one of these giant, super-power machines – a few "rules" (if I may say so) that one should always always follow to increase the enjoyment, double the thrill and heighten the pleasure that comes from riding these babies at neck-breaking speeds.

*snicker*

Enjoy!

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Tinki's Rollercoaster Rules
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1) Always wear your slippers and keep your glasses on.

…People love it when they get to catch flying stuff as they walk. Free stuff (especially when it’s expensive) is always appreciated even if people get hit on the head or get knocked unconscious along the way. They'll think it's worth it. It’s like bonus hour every hour! Who cares if people don’t know what to do with the stuff they catch? That’s their problem.

2) Always leave your coins and valuables in your pockets.

…Charity is charity no matter where you are. Plus, at carnivals, we ALWAYS respect the privacy of our donors. In fact, we’re so strict and particular about this that we don’t even provide receipts so that there’s no evidence whatsoever. Heck, donor's names are kept so anonymous that even we don't know who they are. Aren’t we thoughtful?

3) Carry handbags without zippers.

…It gives our resident pick-pocket-iers something to do in their spare time. Hey, you’re keeping someone off the streets. Think of it as your good deed of the day.

4) Never tie your hair.

…It’s helps you achieve that out-of-bed look without the need to purchase hundreds worth of hairstyling products that dry your hair and kill its texture. It’s become so popular that we’ve already registered the name – The Out-of-RIDE Look. Some people’s partners have mentioned that they even think it’s sexy. We don't care. Whatever floats their boat.

5) Pee in your pants if the ride gets too scary.

…It helps us warm the seat for the person coming after you. Plus, the added “rain effect” with help with the haze situation we’re currently facing. No need for the government to utilize complex processes like cloud seeding for weather modification. We believe in being proactive Malaysian residents by helping out in the event of a national crisis. In fact, while you pee in fear, don’t shout. SING! Perhaps the Negaraku? We heard it helps.

p/s: Lyric sheet available at entrance upon request.

6) Take large meals and gassy drinks before boarding ride.

…We apologise for not having people sell popcorn or ice cream in our premise. We tried bringing them in but they kept going bankrupt. As such, do stuff your faces before boarding our up-down-fast-fast-turn-round-round rides. Your gag may help feed others “down-below” who forgot their meals before riding. “Recyyyycle, that’s what you do! Recyyyycle, yes it’s true! Recyyyycle, la la la (forgot the lyrics; only have lyric sheets for the Negaraku), don't let it go to wasteeee!” RTM has thought us well.

7) Chew gum while on rides.

…This technique helps when you want to avoid appearing sissy while on rides. Once it gets lodged in your throat mid-ride, you won’t even be thinking of the height or the speed. A good way to take your mind off your fears (speed and height) is by replacing those fears with other fears (choking to death).

8) Wear skirts (especially short ones).

…It’s always nice when there are extra things for your fellow riders to see. Sometimes when rides get too fast, things tend to get blurry. Therefore, we’ll need to have some free-shows-mid-air to keep their interest while on the rides. It also helps those with movement-sickness to keep their mind off the thought of vomiting. Plus, hey, you get to play Marilyn Monroe for the night. What an honour.

9) Turn towards the people around you when you scream.

…It helps drown out our bad carnival music. Plus, if you do it well enough the first time, the effects would last till they finish our other rides. Just try not to deafen them permanently, okay. Also, make sure your mouth is wide open when you scream. Who knows? You may be turning towards a dentist-in-the-making who’d be able to give you a couple of handy tips in mouth-care. If you really want people to take notice, have a couple of cloves of garlic. It’d help heaps. Those small bulbs work wonders, you know. Oh yeah. If the people sitting around are bored at any one time during the ride, you’d also be entertaining them. They’d get to count the fillings in your molars.

10) Always read list of rules before boarding ride.

…You never know what you’d learn. Need I say more?

*grin*

With this ends my post.

p/s: The Euro Fun Park is here again! Head towards 1-Utama's open air carpark facing the New Wing and you’ll see it. It’s not something you’d be able to miss even if you tried. Go. It rocks big time.

Better Together

I think it's time for Friendster to come back into action. It's been far too long that my posts have not been coming in in as frequent a succession as they used to do. Bah! I've ALLOWED the Multiply King to rule for far too long. And in all honesty, I only did it for his Queen. Give face only. Cheh! Friendster rules. Period.

*peace*

So anyways, I started on this post a long, long, long time ago but never got to finishing it or posting it up…till tonight. Haha. I really should be in bed considering the fact that I've not slept since I woke up yesterday morning. Hmmm. That makes that…what…half past 39 hours?

*binks*

Whoa.

I didn't know.

*throws glasses, twirls fringe, rips dorky shirt off in telephone booth and flaps cape*

Tadaaa!

*blinks*

Okay. I'm definitely going to bed after this.

Just felt like I've not had time for myself – time to do what I want to do and not what I have to do. Well, it's too late to do what I want to do right now so I'll just leave you guys with this super-nice-extra-lovey-dovey-mushy-maro song. It's a good one. Enjoy!

Artist: Jack Johnson
Song Title: Better Together

There's no combination of words I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing but I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a shoebox of photographs of sepia-toned loving

Love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

Mmmm, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at them stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

And all of these moments just might find their way into my dreams tonight
But I know that they’ll be gone when the morning light sings
And brings new things for tomorrow night you see
That they’ll be gone too, too many things I have to do

But if all of these dreams might find their way into my day to day scene
I'd be under the impression I was somewhere in between
With only two, just me and you, not so many things we got to do
Or places we got to be, we'll sit beneath the mango tree now

Yeah, it's always better when we're together
Mmmm, we're somewhere in between together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together

I believe in memories, they look so, so pretty when I sleep
And now when, and when I wake up, you look so pretty sleeping next to me
But there is not enough time
There is no, no song I could sing
And there is no combination of words I could say
But I will still tell you one thing, we're better together

I'm addicted to this song. How? Sigh. It's been serenading me to bed every night since I attended a wedding more than a fortnight ago.

"Sepia-toned loving." I really like this phrase. Quite a good description, I'd say. But how does love get sepia-toned? When you're been together for ages and things are all comfortable and cosy day-in and day-out? Or does it get that way when things become old, stale, predictable and boring between a couple? Or, alternatively, could it be that it gets that way when it's love that's now but a "has-been" of good times past and are possibly no longer to be?

Sigh. I dont' know.

Sepia-toned love. Bleh… Perhaps it's time to allow my world to dive into colour again. I can't be sure. But I know I should. Yes, I should. Heck, I should! I deserve it. I know I do.

Oh well… Nights, y'all!

"I want to love. You just have to give me reason to."

– pamsong, 25th of September 2006

Angels Walk Among Us

"I believe in angels,
The kind that heaven sends.
I am surrounded by angels,
But I call them 'Friends'."

– Unknown

My angel "next door" (literally) gave me flowers the other day,
I wished that sweet and fresh, they'd always stay,
Well, time's gone by and they've adopted a light shade of brown,
I think it's time for a new bunch of flowers to come around!

– pamsong, 10th of October 2006

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Note 2 Self:
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Pam, it's Lisianthus (Eustoma): "Flower of the Future" that you want for your wedding. THAT's what them pretty blooms are called.

Ten Ten Ten-Ten!

Go ahead. Watch it.

Oh, but before you do, remember, it always goes: ten ten ten-ten!

*grin*

GOTCHA!!!

Hah! You guys thought this was another one of those Shir-Vid Fever posts leh. Haha. Nopes. Not quite.

*blinks*

Actually, not at all.

*snicker*

I laughed my butt off when I watched it from a friend's Friendster profile. Three sections: (1) English reading competency, (2) Counting from 1 to 100 in English, and (3) Naming the days of the week in English. All sections were funny. Really. Tough fight. Even so, the ten-ten part was the one I laughed at hardest, though. Haha. Wasn't expecting that. So did not see that coming. Haha. Ten-Ten. And that face! Wahahaha. Beh tahan nia. Hahahaha.

*takes deep yoga-styled-head-clearing-laughter-stopping breath*

*exhales slowly*

Ten ten.

HAHAHA…

*gasping for breath*

I can't help it. Haha. Leave me and let me roll on the floor. Haha. It's okay. Haha. You go ahead and roll on yours. Haha.

Ten ten, indeed!

p/s: Oh, and of course…
Cheers to the happy couple!
Woot woot!

And only for the both of you: -

*clears throat*

TEN TEN TEN-TEN!

*grin*

Mwah!