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Haven't blogged for a bit and thought it was time to "show face" again... Haha...
Was talking to a friend about life and love when I spouted this... By accident... Haha... I like it... And I think it's reallly true... Actions say everything when you want to show that you love someone... Words just add on to it and serve as confirmations of what your deeds show... True wat!
"Love is best spoken with no words..."
– pamsong, 30th of July 2006
Artist: Nichole Nordeman
Song Title: Help Me Believe
Take me back to the time
When I was maybe eight or nine
And I believed
When Jesus walked on waters blue
And if He helped me, I could too
If I believed
Before rationale, analysis and systematic thinking
Robbed me of a sweet simplicity
When wonders and when mysteries
Were far less often silly dreams
And childhood fantasies
[CHORUS]
Help me believe
Cause I don't want to miss any miracles
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grown-up skin I'm in
To touch an angel's wing
And I would be free
Help me believe
When mustard seeds made mountains move
A burning bush that spoke for You
Was good enough
When manna fell from heavens high
Just because You told the sky
To open up
Am I too wise to recognise that everything uncertain
Is certainly a possibility
When logic fails my reasoning
And science crushes underneath
The weight of all that is unseen
[CHORUS]
Help me believe
Cause I don't want to miss any miracles
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grown-up skin I'm in
To touch an angel's wing
And I would be free, free, free
Help me believe
When someone else's education
Plays upon my reservations
I'm the first to cave; I'm the first to bleed
If I abandon all that seeks
To make my faith, informed and chic
Could You, would You show Yourself to me
[CHORUS]
(Help me believe, cause I don't want to miss any miracles)
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grown-up skin I'm in
To touch one of their wings
And I would be free
I would be free
I would be free
Help me believe
Help me believe
Could You, would You show Yourself to me
Could You, would You show Yourself to me
Help me believe
Some days I feel the rush… It’s like I’m on top of the world starring at the peaks of mountaintops that lie right before my eyes – so close and just within reach…
But on other days…
*sigh*
It’s almost feels like I’m drowning… Slowly sinking into the deep abyss of the loneliest, darkest oceans with little or no hope of ever swimming my way to shore…
Life’s going pretty well for me actually… I should be happy and reeling in that top-of-the-world feeling… The keyword here is “should” – I should… But I’m not…
I dread the nights that come; I hate them… I don’t like the way they make me feel… Haunting me; eating me from the inside out… They make me wanna cry and just let my tears wash away every thought that goes through my head…
“Take me back to the time
When I was maybe eight or nine
And I believed
When Jesus walked on waters blue
And if He helped me, I could too
If I believed
Before rationale, analysis and systematic thinking
Robbed me of a sweet simplicity
When wonders and when mysteries
Were far less often silly dreams
And childhood fantasies”
I wish I were a kid again – a REAL kid… One without a thought in the world except where to park my tricycle, what colour scrunchie to tie my hair with, and who to sit with during recess… But those days are gone… They’re just memories of days gone by… I’m no longer 3feet tall; I’m no longer losing my milk teeth; I’m no longer getting a 50sen allowance… Nope… Gone, gone, gone… They’re all gone…
What I have today is real… It’s funny how people say stuff like “come on, live in the real world” or “this is real life we’re talking about”… Yep, I’m living real life in the real world, all right… Painfully real… Circumstances are rarely as pretty as they appear in the movies… There are times when I watch movies just to escape from the realities of life… Even if it’s just an hour or two… Why? Because in movies, life is sweet, love prevails and hard times pass… Take “A Walk To Remember”, for instance… Watch it and you’ll see what I’m trying to get at… Even the tagline says it all – “Love is like the wind. You cannot see it but you can always feel it.” Movies show us how life SHOULD be; how sweet it COULD be… Sigh… If only… But that’s rarely the case, isn’t it?
“Could You, would You show Yourself to me”
It’s on days like these that I wish God could appear to me in human form… To give me a pat on the head, tell me, “Now now, everything will be alright,” and then hug me to sleep… It’d sure help… But no… I won’t get what I want… Instead, He reveals Himself to me through the people around me, through the people who care for me, and through His word…
“When mustard seeds made mountains move
A burning bush that spoke for You
Was good enough
When manna fell from heavens high
Just because You told the sky
To open up”
There are days when faith runs high… Days when it’s easy to feel and believe that prayer really does move mountains and opens the skies to brighter days… Days when that mustard seed story in Luke 17:5–6 seems as real as real can be…
But there are days when I struggle to keep faith high on the scale… When I’m low on faith and I find it hard to believe that my situation will improve itself, I try to remind myself of Matthew 17:20… I can’t say it’s easy… Because it’s not… But deep inside, I know that all I have to do, is believe…
“Help me believe
Cause I don't want to miss any miracles
Maybe I'd see much better by closing my eyes
And I would shed this grown-up skin I'm in
To touch an angel's wing
And I would be free
Help me believe”
Help me believe… I need You…
It’s time I close my eyes… And hopefully, with that, I’ll see the light in my situation… Yes, tomorrow will be a good day…
This post comes hot on the heels of my previous post: Barbaric Girls… Read that before you go on to this or it won’t really make any sense… You’d be blur… Unless, of course, you’ve watched the clip of the schoolgirls fighting in Miri that was being passed around via the Internet, Bluetooth and MMS a few months ago la… Anyways, as I told Ming that I would in one of my comments for “Barbaric Girls”, I’m posting up the link to Kenny Sia’s version of the catfight in Miri… Really hilarious stuff man… Laughed my butt off while I was watching it… Funny, funny, funny!
Look out for the ultimate bully weapon – "The Hammer of Terror"… JENG! Heh…
Oh, and did I mention it’s funny?
*BIG GRIN*
Now, go click and laugh…
I’ve been lagging…
*In low Aussie accent* Like totally, dude…
Sigh… You’ve really gotta cut me some slack for being on the right side of the Lame Scale… Of late, I’ve had lots of alooooone time…
*singing* Jingly nona, jingly nona, la la la la laaa…
See, this is why I told you guys I didn’t want to join the Singing Competition for Emerge KL… No hope… Sigh… Kantui, die, kepala pusing, habis, mati terus…
Was bored out of my mind so I decided to surf and read some blogs… Stopped by some interesting reads, stayed for a bit till they lost their pull on my attention, closed the page, and went on in search of other good posts to whet my appetite… One post with a YouTube.com Video caught my eye for quite a bit… For the first time, since the “movie” was “released” on the “big screen”, I watched as the young secondary school girls from Miri beat the crap out of their schoolmate…
Silly, silly girls… Bah… They shouldn’t even be called “girls” in the first place… Real barbarians, they were… It’s a shame that it was the guys who had to tell them that enough was enough and that they should stop the abuse, bullying and harassment… What happened to the nurturing, caring and loving nature so innate of women? I didn’t see it there in that video… Nope, not a sight… Gone with the wind…
You know what? It's really those two girls in GREEN – the one with the GREEN jacket and the GREEN hair tie… Ugh… They’re the kind of girls who leave bad tastes in my mouth after I speak of them and what they’re capable of doing… Little devils with no consciences; little monstrosities some parents have raised...
So, the moral of the story is don't let your kids wear green… GREEN baaaad…
*sighs*
I’m bored…
Artist: Steven Curtis Chapman
Song Title: Higher Ways
If I could only fly, I'd go up
And look down from the sky
So I could see the bigger picture
And Lord if I could sit with You
At Your feet for an hour or two
I'm sure I'd ask too many questions
'Cause there's so much going on down here
That I must confess I just don't understand
I don't understand
But I have prayed
And at your feet my whole life has been laid
So I won’t worry, I won’t be afraid
'Cause my soul is resting on Your higher ways
So let the road ahead become unclear
For I am Yours so what have I to fear
If my soul is resting on Your higher ways
[CHORUS]
Your higher ways teach me to trust You
Your higher ways are not like mine
Your higher ways are the ways of the Father
Hiding His children in His love (In His love)
So let it rain
And if my eyes grow dim with tears of pain
This hope I have will not be washed away
'Cause my soul is resting on Your higher ways
[CHORUS]
Your higher ways teach me to trust You
Your higher ways are not like mine
Your higher ways are the ways of the Father
Hiding His children in His love (In His love)
(Instrumental Break)
Someday I will fly
Maybe then You will take me aside
And show me the bigger picture
But until I'm with You, I'll be here
With a heart that is true
And a soul that's resting on
Your higher ways (Your higher ways)
Resting on Your higher ways (Your higher ways)
As human, we are hounded by questions on a daily basis… Thoughts that run through our minds and stir up the need for responses and answers… Some answers come easily… Some take time to be revealed… But the questions remain the same… They come and they come in unrelenting manners… Washing over us; drowning us in the process…
I’ve recently been through a phase where life held a lot of uncertainty and my doubts surfaced like humus on water… Covering the clarity of the pure H2O below, it shuts out light and dampens the atmosphere… If left unattended, humus rots… It deteriorates the quality of the water it rests on… In the very same way, my doubts and uncertainties stopped me from seeing the light in my situation… And if I didn’t do anything about it, it’d kill me on the inside… Eventually…
This seems to be turning out to be a very grave and depressive post that’s all painted blue, doesn’t it?
Hah…
Well, look again…
You see, little did I know, there was a greater being rooting for me… =) One Who had a plan up His sleeve – a plan I didn’t know about, a plan I couldn’t read, nor could I understand…
I remember how this song carried me through tough times when I was away from home a year ago… I was to venture into the unknown and face an uncomfortable situation on my own… At that point, my trusty iPod that was set on Shuffle On spit this song out for me… Perfect timing… It was then that I learned to trust in no one but God especially in situations, which I fail to understand or make sense of…
Well, this song speaks to me again… The future holds no promises for me… It’s an arena that’s hasn’t yet been charted; a territory that hasn’t yet been known… But this time round, I stare that space before me with authority – an authority that comes from knowing… For I know, that no matter how wide the unknown may be, or how long the road may stretch on ahead of me, it all falls within the boundaries of His higher ways…
I do, sometimes, wish I could see the bigger picture and ask God for the answers to all that I don’t understand… What reply did I get of late, you ask? I’ve heard, “All in good time, My child.” So, God just wants me to wait and forget about it for now? How could I possibly just wait and do nothing? Hah… My three-dimensional mind puts me to shame… Somehow or another, the more important something is to you, the more you’d want to see it through yourself… Well, I’ve got news for you… It’s at such a time, that God says, “Let go and let Me handle it.”
So, what I did was I prayed and surrendered it all into His hands… I know He has my best interests at heart anyways… And look! The songs says this, too!
“But I have prayed
And at your feet my whole life has been laid
So I won’t worry, I won’t be afraid
'Cause my soul is resting on Your higher ways
So let the road ahead become unclear
For I am Yours so what have I to fear
If my soul is resting on Your higher ways”
A number of days ago I prayed this prayer and surrendered everything to God… And to my amazement, I just stopped worrying… I wasn’t afraid… I had nothing to fear…. So what if I didn’t know what was in store? When I cast my cares on Him and believed Him to do what’s best for me, He carried me and lifted my burdens… Truly my God is a good God…
But all that talk above is only in relation to what God has done for me in my situation… I have a new focus… One that I really want to share… Surely I must have learned something… You see, some good did come of this uncertainty… I learned to trust… I learned to have faith… I learned to believe… A friend of mine recently said, “When fear increases, faith decreases. And when faith increases, fear decreases.” How true…
In all this, God has given me a valuable lesson… One I hope to remember for all time… As the chorus says, “Your higher ways teach me to trust You.” His higher ways have taught me to put my trust in Him for His ways are higher than mine… One day, I will see the bigger picture… But today is not that day… So today, what I’ll do is I’ll keep the faith and I’ll continue to trust…
Was online searching for “You For Me (The Wedding Song)” guitar tabs when I stumbled upon WeddingBee – some blog by an engaged lady… Well, “You For Me” IS, after all, a wedding song… Hah… Anyways, I can’t seem to stop listening to it after a friend sent it to me… And especially not after I watched Madea’s Family Reunion… It was the wedding song for the movie… She told me that it was “my kind” of song… Haha… True, true… I’ve really gotta get me the soundtrack… There were quite a number of nice songs in there… Very R&B… Slow R&B… Slow R&B love songs… Heh… A leopard never changes its spots, huh? =p
So anyways, I’m amazed at WeddingBee… Really… She has the most amazing categories for her wedding blog… And the most detailed ones! Everything’s filed into categories and sub categories… Amazing… Really, really amazing… Phew… Amazing… *blinks*
Well, I got the following from her blog… Deleted some I thought were sucky songs but the rest were pretty good… Take a peek… Who knows, you might use one of em for YOUR wedding… =)
• It Had To Be You – Dinah Shore
• You Belong To Me – Jo Stafford
• When I Fall In Love – Nat King Cole
• Unforgettable – Nat King Cole
• The Very Thought Of You – Nat King Cole
• At Last – Etta James
• Our Love Is Here To Stay – Nat King Cole / Ella Fitzgerald
• The Nearness of You – Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong / Norah Jones
• Cheek To Cheek – Ella Fitzgerald & Louis Armstrong
• The Very Thought Of You – Nat King Cole
• Quando, Quando, Quando – Michael Buble & Nelly Furtado
• The Way You Look Tonight – Michael Buble / Harry Connick Jr
• That’s All – Michael Buble
• You And I – Michael Buble
• The Glory Of Love – Better Midler
• I’ll Be – Edwin McCain
• Say It – Voices Of Theory
• Together Forever – Shai
• Whenever You Call – Mariah Carey & Brian McKnight
• My All – Mariah Carey
• Against All Odds – Phil Collins
And I added these to the list… =)
• From The Heart – Another Level (OST Notting Hill)
• I Finally Found Someone – Barbra Streisand & Bryan Adams (OST The Mirror Has Two Faces)
• Can’t Smile Without You – Barry Manilow
• So Amazing – Beyonce & Stevie Wonder
• Thank You For Loving Me – Bon Jovi
• So In Love With You – UNV
• I Do (Cherish You) – 98º
• When I See You Smile – Bad English
• Heaven – Bryan Adams
• Breathe – Faith Hill
• I Live My Life For You – FireHouse
• I Only Have Eyes For You – Geoff Love Singers
• Look What Love Has Done – Jaci Velasquez
• How Sweet It Is To Be Loved By You – James Taylor
• You – Jim Brickman
• Your Love – Jim Brickman & Michelle Wright
• Spellbound – Jose Mari Chan
• Making Memories Of Us – Keith Urban
• Till There Was You – Laura Fygi
• Looking Through Your Eyes – OST The Magic Sword
• Nothing Can Stop Us Now – Rick Price
• The Way You Make Me Feel – Ronan Keating
• Come What May – Nicole Kidman & Evan McGregor
• If You Could See What I See – Geoff Moore & the Distance
• Endless Love – Lionel Richie / Diana Ross / Mariah Carey
• Iris – Goo Goo Dolls
And of course... My reason for the online search in the first place...
• You For Me (The Wedding Song) – Johnny Gill
Okay, I think this is enough for now… It’s way too late to go on especially when it comes to a post on something I got distracted by… I still need to find the tabs for "You For Me (The Wedding Song)" but that'll have to wait till tomorrow… Goodnight y’all…
I have decided that Copywriting is no longer my thing… In fact, I am now considering the possibilities of becoming a creator of new things! An architect of the mind! The father (mother, actually) of devices yet to be known to men!
An INVENTOR!
*ahem*
Of what, you say? As of now, I am focusing my efforts on ingeniously designing super-duper high-tech alarm clocks… Yes, yes… A genius; that, I am…
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The Kaboom
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Not much different from regular alarm clocks of today, this grenade “rings” at a specified time with a super-duper-ultra-loud-uber-explosion. Guaranteed to wake even the best of sleepers. You no longer need 10 sissy alarm clocks. Just one.
Disclaimer: Not suitable for pregnant women or for the faint-hearted.
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The Siren
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Fitted with a vibrator, 95dB alarm system and police-style rotating lights. You have the option of having the regular blue and red lights, or any combination of the following – pink, green, yellow, purple and white. Also, should you opt to increase the dB level of the alarm, we can do it for you upon your request. We, however, suggest that you keep it below 140dB.
Disclaimer: The Company shall not be held responsible for any deafness caused from use of The Siren.
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The Puzzle
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This alarm requires you to fix a puzzle before its ringing stops. The perfect alarm clock for those who are a tad “slow” during the early hours of the day. Best used before an important presentation to boost brainpower and alertness. If the 4-piece puzzle becomes too simple, come in for an upgrade at minimal cost. Advanced level alarm clock comes with a 10,000-piece puzzle to solve.
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The Chicken & Egg Problem
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This alarm clock comes in the shape of a hen. Upon ringing, it lays small smooth eggs. You’ve got to be quick or the eggs will roll away. This clock is wired to only quieten down after all eggs are returned to the egg chamber.
Disclaimer: Not good for contact lens wearers who cannot see small objects without their lenses, or those with long-sightedness.
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The Pinhead
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You’ll need to find the right pin to stop its ringing. Should this turn out to be too easy a fit, you may up the stakes by increasing the difficulty level (knob found at the back). “Missions” depict difficulty levels.
Mission 1 – Find ONE pinhead and press.
Mission 2 – Find TWO pinheads and press in the right order.
Mission 3, Mission 4, Mission 5, etc…
And finally, The Final Mission – Find ALL pinheads and press in the right order.
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The Climber
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It hangs above your head and upon ringing, it begins to climb. A chord on the inside is pulled in a centimetre every second and if you’re not quick, you’ll need a ladder to shut it off. We’d advice this clock for air-conditioned rooms or rooms without ceiling fans above the bed only.
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The Hide & Seek Buddy
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Once it starts to ring, its wheels rotate and cause it to fall to the floor to make its rounds around the room, and cleverly finding a place to hide. Get up from bed and down on your hands and knees. Chase it down or you’ll be doomed. The Hide & Seek buddy comes in many colours. For best results find one that matches your flooring.
Disclaimer: Not suitable for those with arthritis.
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The Float Around
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Upon ringing, its propellers rotate and cause it to levitate. Catch it before it flies too far. An ingenious invention that pulls in the same technology used to steer aircrafts, The Float Around is able to navigate around ceiling fans and light fixtures.
Disclaimer: The Company shall not be held responsible for any broken limbs or decapitations that may come from chasing The Float Around.
* Please note that The Company only entertains bulk buying and will not be held responsible for any accidents or mishaps that may arise from the use of alarm clocks sold…
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Plot Outline
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While planning her family reunion, a pistol-packing grandma must contend with the other dramas on her plate, including the runaway who has been placed under her care, and her love-troubled nieces.
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Taglines
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• Learn dignity. Demand respect.
• Come as you are. Leave different.
This is a pretty good movie… I would say that its plot sometimes gets a little out of focus but even so, it carries a pack of good values for self-help and character building… The patchwork of scenes and sub stories may be a tad messy but if you look beyond the typical movie-rating review standard, you’d probably be able to catch a good thing or two… Riding high on emotions of falling in love, being with family and living through hurts, Madea’s Family Reunion is one movie I’d watch again… I had to keep pausing because there were just too many things to learn and take note off… Haha… Well, the following are some things that I learnt… You guys get a small snapshot of my notes… Lucky lucky you!
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Self Deception
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• People can pretend to be happy even when they're not.
• People are controlling because, really, they're insecure for they fear that in public, everyone can see their little secret.
• You can think all you want but it's what you feel that counts.
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Life
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• People get stuck in vicious cycles because of fear. It takes courage to make a run for greener pastures.
• You can try all your life to help somebody but it ain't gonna happen if they don't want to be helped.
• It's not about where you came from; it's about where you're going.
• You can be anything you want to be.
• Pray on and everything's gonna be alright.
• It's time to stop running and fight.
• Bad kids can be taught to live good lives.
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Forgiveness
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• Say you're sorry if you have to, and mean it while you're at it.
• Forgive with you all you have.
• Forgive. Put the past out of the way.
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Family
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• Whenever you are around family you can find love – you can sense it.
• Family reunions are about reuniting the family – bringing together the young and the old.
• Men, take your place. We need you.
• Women, take your place. You are more than just thighs and hips.
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Men & Women
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• Never date an abusive man – it don't matter if it's verbal, physical or emotional. It’s still abuse.
• There are men who appear to "have it all" but if it's only on the outside and there's nothing of substance on the inside, these men have nothing.
• A rich man with a bad heart can be nothing; a poor man with a good heart can be everything.
• There are good men out there with good intentions.
• Marry a man whose heartbeat matches yours.
• If you think your girl's special, then treat her like she is.
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Love
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• It takes courage to love.
• Love with all your heart and love hard.
• Find a love so strong that the two of you make one.
• God will give you a partner that He designed Himself. Just for you. One for you to share time and space with.
• Find a lover you can also call "Friend".
• It doesn't matter what happens in this life, as long as you have the person you love with you.
• Love past your mind and beyond your heart. Love with your soul.
• Speak from the heart and make love the solution.
• "Love is many things. It's varied. One thing it is not and can never be... is unsure."
I like this last quote… I jotted down the exact words from the script… It’s true… Love IS many things… It brings many things along with it, too… But the one thing it can never be, is unsure… The lead in the movie was about to marry an abusive man… One who had temper flares and intense two-faced mood swings… She wasn’t sure if she wanted to go through with it but when a family member gave her this advice, it finally broke through… She left him…
You see, I believe that marriage is for life… There’s not turning back one the deed’s done… You stick with the choice you make and never look back… As such, uncertainty is definitely not something you’d wanna let slide… The world sees marriage as a glorified form of saying, “I love you”… Unfortunately for some, it’s just “I love you… for now”… It should never be that way… You choose a LIFE partner, don’t you? Since when was it for choosing a 2-YEAR partner? Marriage is a choice to be made with open eyes and connected hearts… Good advice, don’t you think? =p
Anyways, think the guys will be bored with such a movie… Kind of a chick-ie drama-ish comedy… Haha… Anyhew… I liked it… =)
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Until That Moment Comes
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When thoughts of him come to mind, I just can’t describe the way I feel,
I wish I could just know for sure if what I feel is what is real.
So many times I wanted to ask You, Lord, but I simply didn’t dare,
I feared that broken heartedness would come again if I ever started to care.
Who it is I’m looking for, I really don’t know for sure,
When the time is right and we’re both ready, I’m sure he will appear.
To win my heart and move my soul to depths so real, so deep,
To have and hold me in his arms and say he’s mine for keeps.
He’ll love and protect me till the end; he’ll keep me warm and safe,
Each time he looks into my eyes, I’ll know I’m in an almost perfect place.
But this time for me hasn’t yet come; I know I’ll still have to wait,
It’s not something I’d worry about; I know my God will find me a mate.
At this point in time, I don’t need a man to talk to me over the phone,
Cause truly I believe and know, I’m never really alone.
My God is always there with me to fill my days with joy,
What more could I ask for? Why would I need a boy?
No, it’s not a need I have, but it’s something that I’d like,
If God were to send someone to me, who knows? I just might.
But for now, I’ve got God in mind to make my dreams come true,
He is whom I really want; He makes my blue skies blue.
So now I surrender it all to You, O Lord, I pray you’ll save for me,
A man who will show me love everlasting – love as long as time may be.
For now until that moment comes, when my lover-to-be is shown,
I’ll be contented with everything I have, I’ll be happy on my own.
– pamsong, 15th of July 2006
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I Remember The Time...
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1. I remember the time he ran out in the rain to get my school shoes for me so that I'd not have to get wet…
2. I remember the time he covered for me when I didn’t do my Math homework…
3. I remember the time he taught me how to divide…
4. I remember the times he waited with me after school…
5. I remember the time he wrapped a present for me all by himself…
6. I remember the time he peeled chewing gum off my shoe for me because he said that I was dirtying my hands doing it…
7. I remember the time he peeled an orange from its skin in small chunks for me because I had an ulcer and it hurt to bite into the orange…
8. I remember the time he brought honey to my home when I wasn't feeling well…
9. I remember the times he carried water for me…
10. I remember the time he tried making me mushroom soup…
11. I remember the time he cooked me dinner…
12. I remember the time he drank beer on my behalf because I hated the stuff, till he started feeling sick…
13. I remember the time he brought me all over town in the middle of the night because I was on an ice-cream hunt…
14. I remember the times he cut guava for me and soaked them in salt water overnight just because I liked them that way…
15. I remember the times he cut sugarcane into bite-sized chunks for me to chew on…
16. I remember the times he brought me to the cinema just to buy hotdogs and then go home…
17. I remember the time he went for dinner with my folks even when I wasn’t around…
18. I remember the time he bought me dinner when I was stuck in school…
19. I remember the time he bought me lunch while I was at the hospital with my mom…
20. I remember the time he donated blood because my mom needed it…
21. I remember the time he went for a chick flick because it was what I wanted to watch…
22. I remember the time he sang to me although he thought his voice sucked…
23. I remember the times he let me cut his hair…
24. I remember the time the “other” he let me cut his “other” hair… =p
25. I remember the time he tried tying my hair for me…
26. I remember the times he gave me piggybacks…
27. I remember the time he carried me from the car while I pretended I was still asleep… =)
28. I remember the times he lent me his car on Fridays so that I could go out with my friends…
29. I remember the time he left his friends earlier than planned just to send me home…
30. I remember the times he walked me right to my front door when he sent me home…
31. I remember the times he made me laugh…
32. I remember the time he let me play with bubbles through the sunroof while he zipped along the small lanes around the house I was living at…
33. I remember the time he was nice although I dropped his towel into the toilet bowl…
34. I remember the time he bought me a CD I was dying to have but was reluctant to splurge on…
35. I remember the time he just knew the type of song I’d like…
36. I remember the times he serenaded me…
37. I remember the times he remembered my “special” orders…
38. I remember the time he brought me to the playground…
39. I remember the times he brought me to Botanical Gardens…
40. I remember the time he brought me ice-skating…
41. I remember the times he brought me swimming (more like playing with water)…
42. I remember the time he brought me to the beach…
43. I remember the times he brought me stargazing…
44. I remember the times he gave me wake up calls…
45. I remember the times he prayed with me before bedtime…
46. I remember the time he fended off a couple of jerks for me by walking by my side…
47. I remember the time he surprised me with a Message-On-A-Balloon on Valentine’s Day…
48. I remember the time he rushed to get my Valentine’s surprise and placed it in my room, on my bed – all during break hour…
49. I remember the time he pretended and asked me to stay home cause he had made plans for flowers to be delivered…
50. I remember the other times he bought me flowers…
51. I remember the time he got me a watch I really wanted…
52. I remember the time he paid for my public bus fair – all of 50sen (I think)…
53. I remember the time he came over to my house just to get my Internet up and running…
54. I remember the time he stayed up with me, though just online, while I rushed to finish my assignment…
55. I remember the time he saved me my seat at McDonald’s even though I was then just a stranger…
56. I remember the time he rubbed Sloane’s for me when my back hurt…
57. I remember the time he asked if I was okay…
58. I remember the times he wiped away my tears…
59. I remember the time he “healed” my itchy eye with hot water…
60. I remember the time he rushed me to the airport for an unplanned flight back to Penang even though he didn’t know the way there…
61. I remember the time he used more than half a tank of petrol just to try and find the way to Eastin Hotel because I was to dance there…
62. I remember the times he drove around aimlessly just so that we could spend time…
63. I remember the time he struggled to keep me warm in a freaking cold bus even though he was as cold as I was…
64. I remember the time he stood up for me when I was going through a rough patch with a friend…
65. I remember the time he came to watch me dance…
66. I remember the time he came over just to teach me a type of dance…
67. I remember the time he danced for me…
68. I remember the time he danced with me…
69. I remember the time he did the dishes…
70. I remember the times he wrote me short poems just to cheer me up…
71. I remember the time he left a small note in his laptop for me to find…
72. I remember the times he wrote me letters…
73. I remember the times he sent me cards…
74. I remember the times he used to call…
75. I remember the times he said, “I love you”…
See! There ARE nice guys around… In a perfect world, they’d all be just ONE person… =p
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You've Changed My World
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At times the days seemed so long, that I thought I'd never make it through,
Then suddenly, out of a dream, I met someone like you.
I'd locked up all my feelings and I'd thrown away the key,
Until your heart spoke a thousand words I knew were meant to be.
When times turned rough and lonely, when despair fell upon my face,
You comforted me and kept me safe in that loving, special place.
You don't realize what you have and what you've done for me,
But the way you managed to steal my heart is what has set me free.
You've given me a feeling that no one else could ever change,
Your love has touched a place in me, something I found so strange.
It's as if you were cut right out of a spell and cast upon my heart,
Because the crazy thing about it is, I think I've loved you from the start.
No one in this whole wide world could touch the feelings we share;
To the seconds I spend with you, nothing can compare.
You've opened my eyes and heart just enough and you have let me live,
You've changed my world with magic and with the kindness that you give.
My heart had once been broken, and I thought love was so far away,
But you came into my life and showed me brighter days.
Like crystal clear blue waters or a magical sunset,
Each moment speaks a thousand words to which no price can be met.
I wish I could just stop time and spend the night looking into your eyes,
For when I'm alone with you there's a feeling even I can't describe.
Although my heart holds painful memories that can never be erased,
You touch me with a love so strong, it hides that lonely place.
Heartbreak, loss and misery were all I ever knew,
Until someone showed me happiness and that someone was you.
Your gentle words and loving arms lift me up when I am down,
And with all you've done for me, you've turned my world around.
Your love is so consistent, like the waves that break on shore,
And with every day that passes, my love for you grows more and more.
When broken dreams still fill my days and nothing's going right,
You reassure me with your smile and give me back my sight.
You sweep a spell across my heart, like a breeze across the sea,
And you fill my world with beautiful dreams and feelings meant to be.
The way you live, the way you love and even so much more,
With every smile you give to me, I know you're all I could ask for.
You are in every breath I take and in every tear I cry,
You're in every star I wish upon up in the lonely sky.
Every day with you is heaven, like an angel from above,
A million magic moments sent – to give you all my love.
You are living proof that prayers and dreams really do come true,
And I thank God for that special day he blessed my heart with you.
I could speak of a thousand promises or even bet my very soul,
For the rest of my life, I'll be touched with feelings no one can control.
Fate, destiny or magic may be reasons that we met,
But all I know is the days with you I never will forget.
Until the day I found you, I never knew a love so true,
But from today until eternity I swear I'll be loving you.
This is so beautiful… I found it online but edited it to my liking…
I have such anal-istic tendencies; I can’t just let them be;
Each time I choose to publish a post, they have to feel like “me”!
*grin*
Today’s just one of those days when I reflect on my life and the many moments God has blessed me with… I have lots to cherish and to give thanks for… I really do… My God has given me so much more than I have asked for… Probably more than my fair share even… And the most amazing thing is that His “gifts” to me just keep on coming… I have an awesome God… One whom I love… One who I know loves me in return…
*sighs*
But at the same time, I feel like love is so far away… =( I know I made my choice – I made it a year ago… A decision to keep love at bay… But did I make the right choice? Sigh… Yeah, I still think I did… I believe I did…
Why?
Cos I know that God has a plan for me… He had it… I just didn’t know it then…
I’ve grown so much in the past one year… I know that if I had a “Someone Special” by my side, I wouldn’t have been able to learn all that I have, I wouldn’t have been able to savour my experiences as much as I have, and rebuild the friendships I’ve had, nor meet the many people I have… I wouldn’t have had the discipline to just put my focus on ME and GOD… It wouldn’t have been fair to my partner for me to do so either… On a whole, I’d have to say that life has been good… No, scratch that… God has been good… He has blessed me beyond words can say…
I can’t say it has been easy – cos it hasn’t… I’ve been through hell and back… But now, I’m choosing to focus my eyes on the “and back” part of that sentence… I’m back… I’ve been back for quite a bit now… A year, maybe? I don’t remember… All I know is that I have my God to thank for this… He’s sent me angLEs (private joke – meaning “angels”) *snicker* and a steady stream of smiles and laughter as well as a daily dose of sunshine and roses… Thank you, Daddy…
I know my God is more than enough for me; He’s more than sufficient to fulfil all my needs… But what about the things that I want? Some have commented that I’ve been blogging about heartbreak stories of late and none that are of love… Haha… Never thought I’d see the day a comment came in saying that I blogged too little of love! The impossible has become possible at last! A Hopeless Romantic, I am not! Haha… Nah… I don’t think that my posts have ALL been about broken hearts… And I sure don’t think that heartbreak stories consume my posts… I’m not that depressive a person… Haha…
Now, where was I? Oh yeah… The things I want… Well, I really miss it… I do… I miss being in love… I’ve said it before… Many many times… Breeze through my previous posts and you’ll see – I love being in love… Haha… I do, I do! And I’m not ashamed of it… Come on, nice wat… =p I miss that La-Di-Da phase during courtship when everything’s all high and dandy… It’s swell… The buzz of electricity that penetrates the air when your eyes meet across the room; the goose bumps you feel when your skin touches; the shiver down your spine each time your pet name (sorry, I couldn’t find a fancier word… =p) is called…
Do bear in mind that I’m not talking about the flirting kind of La-Di-Da though… That’s child’s play, really… Plus, I don’t like the thought of it… Nope, I’m talking about really being in love and loving every minute of it because of the intense emotional high that comes with knowing that someone else loves you and has your best interests at heart no matter what happens… The world has adulterated the purity of the idea, concept and notion of love… THIS is the kind of love that SHOULD bring the La-Di-Da around – REAL love…
Sigh… Do I really have to lose the perks of being loved by another? Sigh… It’s not fair but I guess it comes with the decision; it comes with the "I'm-A-Singleton" territory… Well, whatever it is, I know that when love does come again, I want it to be for real – no more games, and definitely no playing around… I think it’s really swell to be able to find a love that erases all memory of things lost, hurts inflicted and pains accumulated… Love that opens doors to sunny skies and turns your world around no matter what you’ve been through… The kind that this poem talks about… There really is nothing better, nothing sweeter and nothing grander… Nothing…
Well, I can’t say that I am experiencing such love with a man just yet… But that doesn’t mean that I haven’t found this kind of love at all… Nopes… This Love found me… This Love rescued me… This Love died for me… This Love "Changed My World Around"… Did I mention that I love being in love? I’d like to change that a bit… I love Love… For Love loved me before I even understood what love was…
1 John 4:8
Haha... I'm laughing as I post this... I really am... Was looking for some lost pictures in my comp and stumbled upon a picture of a banana... One that I used for a previous post... Haha... It brought back memories of a sing-songish-dance-thingy... Me being me, I googled some versions online and there were PUH-LEN-TEE! None of which were the ones I knew though... They were close, yes... But not the exact ones... Hmmm... So anyways, bear with me okay... It's been awhile... I hope I get the order and the lyrics correct...
Artist: ??? – Goodness knows!
Song Title: Go Bananas
*shouts*
Bananas of the world unite! (Jump up and clasp hands over head with arms stretched upwards)
*pretending to peel self*
Peel banana, peel, peel banana
Peel banana, peel, peel banana
*twist body as though intending to squish something under feet*
Squish banana, squish, squish banana
Squish banana, squish, squish banana
*uh, I so can't remember this step*
Eat banana, eat, eat banana
Eat banana, eat, eat banana
*wave and slowly creep away with knees bent*
Bye banana, bye, bye banana
Bye banana, bye, bye banana
(Repeat till fade)
I’m in shock… I know I shouldn’t be but I am… I can’t help it… I just discovered that a couple I know of who’ve been together for quite a bit have broken up… Not that I was THAT close to them… And not that I really even care but… Yeah… I’m in shock…
It’s here again – The Break-Up Season… I know it is… Already nearing the end of the season but nevertheless, it's here… It’s this really weird time when those in relationships get the itch to run or to cheat… What’s up with that? I mean, it’s almost like when spring comes along and animals instinctively go mate hunting… We’re no animals but some of us sure do act like we’re one of them when this time of year comes around… And the weirdest part is that it comes round every year! Why? I don’t get it… It’s the like world goes crazy and people just fall outta love at around the same time… I hate it… It gives me a bad feeling… Almost as if love means nothing at all and we’re just beasts, born to roam the earth, repopulate it and then die off…
Perhaps all it took was one couple who called it quits and the rest just followed suit, empowered with false bravado… Maybe they started thinking, “If they dared and could do it, I can do it to…” Whatever it is, it’s a vicious cycle… Nobody works at making relationships work anymore… They just give up, pack up and move on… Leaving behind, a mess of broken hearts, wounded emotions and crushed spirits…
Breaking hearts ain’t as fun as it seems… And trust me, it’s a lot less fun when it’s your heart that gets broken... When it’s you at the losing end… But whatever it is, I always feel that no matter who does the breaking-up, both parties suffer the ricochet of hurts that come with a past left behind… Walking away from something that once held importance to you is never easy… What more when it comes to walking away from someONE you once held close to your heart… Hearts and emotions are left in disorder, in disarray and – in the worst cases – in shambles… All that’s left is for us to pick up the pieces left behind after the emotional chaos has run its course, and humbly retreat to lick our individual emotional wounds…
Hearts – fragile things they are… Sometimes when things get rough, it’d be great if we could just will our hearts to stop beating for others who've hurt us… But often time, it never happens… Instead, we pour our hearts out in mounts of letters, through expensive phone calls, over countless visits and in endless streams of tears… After which, we turn around and say, “He/She toyed with my feelings!” And then, we finally lose heart… We lose the enthusiasm and will to love and be loved… We lose all purpose and resolve… The heart of the matter is that we lose the courage to face another relationship because of what we fear most – being hurt once again… That’s what it all comes down to…
I believe that broken hearts can be avoided… Yes, they can… But how? Well, I’m not sure how yet… Heh… Unfortunately for most of us, it’s usually a case of it’s-too-late… BUT… The good news is (yes, there’s always good news) that broken hearts can be mended – they can be healed… Still feeling the pain, the hurt and the rejection? Break it; renounce it, reject its hold on you… It’ll do your heart a heap load of good… Such feelings, if left unattended, will only eat your heart from the inside out and cause prolonged agony, sorrow and heartache…
My question is: – Why continue to grieve when you can surrender it all to God and mope no longer?
If “freedom” from this pain is what you really want, then ask it of God… Right from the bottom of your heart… Consciously decide that this is where it ends… That you want to be set free from this bondage of emotional anguish… And with that, lose your heart to Him all over again… Trust Him to handle your heart with care and take the opportunity to fall head over heels in love with the Saviour who loves you and sweeps you off your feet daily with brilliant sunshine during the day and twinkly stars during the night…
Love Him, first, with all your heart and soul and you’ll soon see that a change of heart will come your way… Say goodbye to cold feet and sweaty palms when the thought of falling in love once again comes to mind… Don’t put your trust in men but in God… Believe that He will bring the right person along for you… Someone who will cherish you and love you the way you should be loved…
Broken hearted? Fear not and take heart! It’s not the end of the road just yet…
Artist: Lifehouse
Song Title: You and Me
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
Yep… This is the THIRD time I'm blogging this song… Haha… But come on… It IS a nice song wat… And plus, it’s not my fault… Really… It’s all Smallville’s fault, I tell you! It’s stupid Clark Kent who FORCED me to blog this song… Sigh… I feel so used… =p
Okay, enough with the crap and cakap kosong… I was watching Smallville earlier… And as always, they played a song for the final scene before the credits… This time, it was You And Me that played… They got Lifehouse to play live man! So nice… And all this was while Clark and Lana danced together during prom… Sigh – the good kind of sigh… =)
This time round, this was the part I liked best: –
“All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here”
There are times when words just fail us… Moments that reduce us to mere kids with limited vocabularies… I hate times like these… It irritates the hell outta me… If you knew me, you’d know it’s EXTRA irritating, ESPECIALLY for a person like me… Haha… Well, yeah… I get hit with these bouts of wordlessness too… And it sucks but these things happen… The worst part is that these bouts usually strike at the worst of times… Times when I wanna make an impression; when I wanna appear intellectual (yes, yes… I used the word “appear”); when I wanna sound all scholarly… Sigh… Just this thing life has against me with its perfectly bad timing… Haha… “Perfectly bad timing” – oxymoronic, don’t cha think? Hmmm… How inspired… May blog that one day… =p
Book Title: Captivating
Written By: John & Stasi Eldredge
Yes, AGAIN... I don't care what you think... =p
"Every song you love, every memory you cherish, every moment that has moved you to holy tears has been given to you from the One who has been pursuing you from your first breath in order to win your heart. God's version of flowers and chocolates and candelight dinners come in the form of sunsets and falling stars, moonlight on lakes and cricket symphonies; warm wind, swaying trees, lush gardens, and fierce devotion."
– (Eldredge, 2005, pp. 116)
Isn’t it just beautiful? I think both John and Stasi are really good descriptive writers… They manage to capture the emotion and give it just the right touch to make you feel what they want you to feel… At least, I hope what I felt was what they wanted me to feel… Haha… Anyways, it’s all good…
This paragraph made me see that God romances me in the most wonderful ways through the things I see daily but so very often take for granted – twinkling stars (I have a thing for stars; I do, I do), brilliant moonbeams (across the mini Selat when I look at the sea from my home balcony), sweet smelling blooms (there’s this rose I found in Australia that really reminds me of my maternal grandfather but that’s another story) and pretty rainbows (saw three huge ones side by side when I was in Perth)… Sigh… I have a God who has a thing for beauty; He has a thing for nice and pretty things… And I, in turn, simply adore the works of His hands…
And check out these next few lines that came in the paragraph that followed…
"This romancing is immensely personal. It will be as if it has been scripted for your heart. He knows what takes your breath away, knows what makes your heart beat faster.”
– (Eldredge, 2005, pp. 116)
Ain’t it grand to know that this God who loves you is one who knows what really appeals to you, what arouses your interest and what captures your heart? He knows exactly what you really desire deep inside… Perhaps even before YOU know it yourself! Simply fab, huh?
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Bibliography
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Eldredge, John & Staci (2005), "Captivating: Unveiling The Mystery of a Woman's Soul", Nelson Books: Nashville, Tennessee.
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Fun Fact #2
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No piece of paper can be folded more than 7 times.
Today's Fun Fact was crazy… I thought this was a joke but… Nopes, it’s true!!! I took the liberty to try it out myself before posting… To be certain, I experimented with various types of paper in various gram mage... Thick paper, thin paper, expensive paper, cheapo paper, coloured paper, A4 paper, newspaper, sugar paper, rice paper – EVERYTHING! No difference! Just cannot fold leh… You try and see!
This is super funny... Haha... Deleted the lamer ones already... These aren't so bad... Check em out! A collection of leave application letters written by people at various places in India…
1. An employee applied for leave as follows: – Since I have to go to my village to sell my land along with my wife, please sanction me one-week leave.
… I hate it when people sell their wives… =p
2. From an employee whose daughter was getting married: – As I am marrying my daughter, please grant a week's leave.
… INCESTUOUS!!!
3. From an employee whose mother-in-law passed away: – As my mother-in-law has expired and I am only one responsible for it, please grant me 10 days leave.
… Humans have expiry dates… But if you notice dents on our tins, please put us back on the shelves and choose another one… =p
4. Another employee applied for half-day leave as follows: – Since I've to go to the cremation ground at 10 o-clock and I may not return, please grant me half day casual leave.
… Haha… Terbakar sama…
5. From an employee who had fever: – I am suffering from fever, please declare one-day holiday.
… I am suffering from laziness… I don’t think I’m alone in this… Please declare one-week holiday for Malaysia… Thank you…
6. From a student with a headache to the headmaster: – As I am studying in this school I am suffering from headache. I request you to leave me today.
… Ooo… I can relate to this one… Haha… Certain schools just have the headache vibe…
7. Informing the receiver of an attachment: – I am enclosed herewith…
… Dangerous territory here man… Tercakap salah to the wrong person, kantui terus!
8. In a formal letter: – Dear Sir: with reference to the above, please refer to my below...
… HAHA! Enough said…
9. From an employee whose wife had taken ill: – My wife is suffering from sickness and as I am her only husband at home I may be granted leave.
… Mmm hmm… Husband #7 is on duty today… Please look for him…
10. In a friendly letter: – I am in well here and hope you are also in the same well.
… Shall we take a swim? You up for a million laps? =p
11. A candidate writing in for a job: – This has reference to your advertisement calling for a ' Typist and an Accountant - Male or Female'... As I am both for the past several years and I can handle both with good experience, I am applying for the post.
… Uh oh… Jeng!!!
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